Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I am writing this at 1am because I accidentally drank pre workout at 11:30. My brain and body are moving at 200 MPH and I thought what else to do but talk to my favorite people? Literally nothing feels better than typing into this void. Doing this earlier for sure could’ve saved me and my insurance at least a couple of thousand on the therapy. Happy to be here now though, I hope you all enjoy. I honestly think I am going to read this in the morning and become extremely confused as to what I was talking about. Eff it we ball though!

Air Force 1

Today I was sitting and thinking about all that I wanted to accomplish both short term and long term. There are so many things that I want to squeeze into this limited time frame. I need to live to at least 327 to get a fraction of that list done. It did remind me that I do not have time to waste. I have spent so much of my life trying to prepare or become great at something before pursuing it. In many instances, it has caused me to miss out or talk myself into avoiding it altogether. However, it is insane to think that you have to be good at something before you can pursue it. Like sista, where is the logic in that??? You miss out on so many things waiting on perfect circumstances, skill sets, etc. Literally just do it. I love to sing and dance. Now, can I hold a tune? Not in the slightest, but you know what? I deserve to hoot and holler just like the girlies who have grandmothers who ensure they get solos on easter. This is what prompted me to start the karaoke distribution system. I send random full production voicenotes to my friends and surprise them with my talent (or lack thereof rather), and it’s something that I think we all look forward to. I could take vocal lessons and try to practice having perfect pitch, but it’s not necessary for me to do this thing that I love. Dancing, I love it. I could go out completely sober and move my body the whole night. By no means am I great, my hips might not lie, but they do tell an occasional story, and that’s okay. Even this blog, I do not have perfect grammar, or a straight train of thought. By no means do I think I am an amazing writer. I am someone who enjoys writing, though. I enjoy sharing my thoughts, and woes, and insane stories. And with this pursuit, I am becoming better. (please keep your thoughts to yourself if you disagree) If I had of just kept writing in my journals, I never would have had to develop a voice that speaks to other people rather than just detailed accounts of what I currently think. That was kind of a blurb of nothing, but the point remains DO NOT KEEP PUTTING OFF YOUR INTEREST. Try them, fail at them, become a master of them, figure out you actually aren’t interested in them at all. Whatever comes from it, at least put forth that effort in trying. You owe that not only to yourself, but the world at large. Who knows what impact your silly little pursuit can have? Just do it my baby!

Girl…. Please just…. YEAH

Another week, another horrible date. I don’t know what it is about me that makes men open up so easily, but consider the hoes PETRIFIED. I went on a first date with arguably the most vulnerable man in America. He was in tears y’all… and I barely talked. If you know me, even if you don’t and you have just read this blog, I think that it is quite obvious that I am not a silent girl by any stretch of the imagination. I was stunned to complete silence. I saw pictures of all of his exes, bank statements, heard about racist family members, and a past life of crime. I came home, took my shoes off, sat on my couch, and pondered myself to sleep. I genuinely have never been that shocked before… EYE cannot anymore y’all. Maybe romance just is not in the card’s for me because I cannot do too much more of this. Somebody please tell the mentally and financially stable fine sh*t to come get me. I am tired.

Then today as I was leaving the gym (dizzy asf mind you because I did not eat lmao) a young gentlelady stopped me asking for my number. Girly pop it is Sunday, no homo!

I also recently had a catch up call with an ex because I was having a moment of weakness and I am also nosey asf because I heard he was unemployed. He has not grown an ounce and I honestly do not know what I ever saw in him. I did find out that he was indeed unemployed. While I tried to show him sympathy and be encouraging, he decided to get mad at me because I expressed I had no interest in reconciling or ever being with him again ( we can be sistas at most friend) Y’all why did this man try to infer I was a gold digger because I did not want to see him. Mind you, he never had any gold to dig lmao. He’s broke I’m up!

They say you are what you attract and that statement is really throwing me off. If I am at all a reflection of anyone who has been attracted to me in the last few years really ( with the exception of the two love of my lives, love you boys <3) I need to be eradicated, quickly. There just is no way that that statement is true because girl.. what???? Hopefully here soon I am writing to you guys from the lap of some fine shit because your girl really cannot keep doing this. It’s sick asf!

I loveeee I LOooOOVE I loOOOVE I loveeeee I looOVEEEE

• Being strict!!!! It is so fun to not allow people to have access to you or continuously disappoint you. I absolutely love this, will be strict as hell for the foreseeable future.
• Videos of baby animals. They are so sweet and innocent, last week I cried numerous times to videos of young wild animals. It’s giving older lady and I love it.
• Having all my mfn jewelry on! It brings so much life and character to an outfit. It makes me feel so unique and well-planned to have all of my things on.
• Speaking of all my mfn jewelry on, I have been back on my Chief Keef kick. I love big sosa. Jumanji has been on repeat during my gym sessions again. Young me is so happy! https://youtu.be/eJ89ufVdN3E?si=PVq-T8ObTyUFyWby
• Leon Thomas, I love him down! His music is so serene and thought-provoking. Give my man his tens!

I know that this is much shorter than usual, but please give me a round of applause for my consistency. I did not even give anyone the chance to say “Damn girl shut the f*c* up.” Plus, I genuinely just enjoy telling y’all my business! I hope that this week is so good for all of us. Until next time sweet readers, do things, love people, and take care of yourself. I love youuuuuu, toodleeesssssss ❤ ❤