Hey super sexy peopleeeeee. Happy New Year! I wasn’t going to let the first month of the best year ever pass without saying hello to my favorite people. Let’s jump straight into my insane brain 🙂

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Based on this blog I think that you can very obviously tell that I love thinking (over thinking moreso.) I like to get so wrapped up in my own thoughts that I feel like my brain has its own secondary brain. Like a purse for a purse situation. Something that I can’t stop thinking about recently is how it feels that nobody is creating new things anymore. Every event is a repeat of another event. Outfits inspired by Pinterest. Kind gestures that you saw someone else do. In the media, there are a billion reboots, extensions of series, and constantly seeing the same few faces? Have we completely lost our ability to create? This blog of course is a place of creativity for me, but it doesn’t feel like enough. I’ve picked up more mediums of creativity because I’m honestly so afraid to fall into whatever it is that most of the population has fallen into. Living life under the guise of “ control + c ” The beauty in humanity is our ability to form new ideas, and innovate. It feels like so much of that desire is gone. I’ve unplugged a lot from social media, gotten deeper into reading, and forcing my brain to produce new and what seems like original thoughts and concepts. I feel much more human than before. I know that’s a crazy statement (not that crazy in comparison to most of what exits my mouth), but it’s true. I feel much more connected to what I feel like is my natural state of being. So my perfect and amazing reader I challenge you to create. Use your brain as your inspo tool and not your tiktok search bar. It feels amazing and ultimately you’ll thank yourself. We desperately need more noggin usage. We cannot rely on other people’s thoughts, constructs, and ideas forever. You’ll never live life the way YOU are intended to if you don’t create that life for yourself.

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Another thought that I’ve had due to me trying new mediums of creating is that we are all so afraid at being bad at something. I know personally I have two good times to try something and if I don’t feel like I could win a medal after that second time I’m soooooooo cool on it. I hate that we are all so fueled by exceptionalism. It’s honestly okay to suck. We don’t have to be amazing at every little thing we do. I love to sing (I can’t hold a tune.) I love to bowl (I get smoked on most dates.) I love painting right now and I’m for damn sure not a Picasso! That doesn’t matter though because I can do it and enjoy it. That’s all that matters. I feel like we’re all being conditioned to feel like we have to be amazing at something or making some type of profit from it, when the reality is you can just enjoy things for what they are and what they mean to you. I will continue to hoot and holler because that’s what I like to do!

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My Q1 not dating thing is not going as well as my Q1 sobriety. What can I say? I need somebody to help me… not have such a big heart. I easily was able to put that bottle and that reefer down, but these men won’t leave me aloneeeeee. After the most insane romantic year of my entire life I decided to just take a step back and get my life together and leave these HOES alone. Extra emphasis on the hoe bc you all know I unfortunately do like my man slightly ran through

I met the men that were beyond ran through. They were the human embodiment of the “sisterhood of the traveling pants” everybody has and will have them at some point. Or they were wed. Or they were absolutely insane. And a few instances they were all of this things simultaneously! Shocking, I know. So because of all of that I said let me just work on the lady in the mirror. Trouble keeps finding me!!!! I went on an accidental date and I think he needs a caretaker. I also am accidentally becoming the princess of the most chaotic city in the U.S. (hint home of a twisted up legend.) and I have a blind date in our capital after I fully break my dating fast. So I can say that I suck at not chatting. I’m just a super talkative lady and I will talk to a wall given the opportunity and often times people don’t understand my mannerisms and interpret them as flirting and I’m just completely disillusioned into thinking that everybody gets me and boom men think I’m in love with them and I’m on accidental dates when I think I’m just one of the guys. I would kill to just be seen as one of the fellas man.

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• Doing my makeup. Such a canvas to work with and so many looks to do. My ulta account might go triple platinum this year.
• Prepping my outfit for the MJ movie (my crew bring your a-game)
• Just leaving. Idk when something isn’t for you, there is no need to sit in that. Grab you things and go!
• Spending time with my siblings. I love those little idiots so much. Hanging out with them is so fun now that we all curse and have PTSD.
• Just trolling. I’ve got it bad!!!!

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Happy New Year again hotties! I’m so excited for what’s to come. I love you guys for reading this and overlooking my shortcomings and unhinged thoughts. It’s getting kind of sappy so I know that “d*amn girl shut the f**k up” comments are coming to the forefront so I will bow out gracefully. ToOooooooOoOoOoOOoOoooodles divas and divettes!